A day before my birthday~

Well, I woke up today just to realize you're buried
And I couldn't dig you up
How I wish I had the time to say that I regret every moment I've waste on waiting!

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
You'll never know.


In memories of Azmeer (1991-2009) Rest in Peace

I woke up this morning just to wish I was dreaming. 2 old friends was on my door telling me a classmate had just passed away. Shocked, disbelief, sorrow, you name it, everything was running on my head, and then suddenly, blank.

I was there during the whole funeral. My tears almost fell when I saw the hopeless body lying there ready to be buried. I keep wishing I would wake up. But I didn't, I realize I'm standing on reality. A harsh one.

The others, the smiling faces, comforting each other with their smiles. Hiding the sorrow and trying hard to swallow the bitter truth. How long will that last before they break down and cry?

I didn't get to meet him for the last time, I wish I had. I wish I could tell him that I'm sorry... for everything.

Happy Birthday (You'll Never Know)

I'm writing this on 12.40am of March 11th~ Officially my crush's birthday~
Nothing much though~ I'm giving her a present, a simple one indeed~
A music album. No, not a normal one. But one done by me myself, fully.
It's called 'For Kai' with 5 tracks. Ok, 5 tracks, I'll call it an ep~

There you go~


TRACKS
1 - Entitled Untitled
2 - Happy Birthday
3 - Thank You
4 - I've Always Wanted To Tell You
5 - For Kai

I'll put it online ASAP~

Life sucks? Think again mate~

WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM?!! : Seriously, this would make a great punk rock patch~

What izzit with me lately?
I really feel down since I quit my job. I told my boss that I was going to pursue my dreams XD
But seriously, I am! Right now, I'm drawing a comic for Gakuen Tension also writing some songs along the way (who knows maybe I can fit it into my comic XD).

I went to my workplace yesterday to pick up my last pay, even when I say I was going to quit, I still help the others do the works~ Well, lucky me I don't have to wash the dishes XD
And here's my last pay; RM270. A very little amount, I know. Since I left work a week before the end of the month and on top of that, I did borrowed the boss RM50. Yeah, I suck.

Along the way home, I dropped at a local Jking store to but myself a jacket that cost me about RM80 TT^TT As I was leaving the store owner asked me "You're buying that? What do you work as?" since the one I bought is usually worn by teachers. With a bitter smile I replied that I've just quit my job and laugh. Unexpectedly, he offered me a job: as a despatch-something. But my jobless friend that came along with me snatch it since I don't have a licence XD
Then he offered another job, as a shirt designer! Me eyes went +w+ hearing that XD

He said that he'd give RM 10 for each design I could complete based on demand~ It's not much I know, but the fact that I like the job made me accept it~

So now, I'm free, have a job that I like and pursuing my dreams : life doesn't always suck after all~