So lock your children in the basement and keep a rifle by the door.

Remind me or izzit has really been like 3 month since I update this very blog (properly, minus the intermission). It's been that long (not liek I have any reader anymoar XD).
So what's been up lately? Er... as you may guess the answer is 'Life' but yeah.... some of you might add that I don't have one...

Well, 3 month- yeah, lotsa stuff had happened. And lot of- most of he stuff that happened are shitty. Like how half of my housemates is gone after stuff and fwked up that happened at college. But that's that. Let's get to the darker side of life shall we? And that is how I'm thinking on updating this blog moar often now. Hell yeah you heard that right. I'm back to make your life miserable.

And you know, I have this creepy idea of starting a strip comic on my blog. So hands up who thinks it's a great idea~ oh wait, no one's there... crap...

It’s even for me, and even for you

It’s even for me, and even for you
Just try to understand…
You and me, yeah I remember,
Look how we were meant to be!

Sometimes... little things doesn't matter~ And you just wanna grow up... even when you know the world is rotten... you just wanna keep living... when you started thinking like society! And you feel so fwked up of that fact! And sometimes... you feel a lost even when you doesn't lose anything... you just feel fwked up... just simply fwked up... for something that you blame yourself for happening but others don't... or are they...? Yeah, I forgot, reality check; shit tends to happens~

I wonder what went wrong, it became like this
when I’m not pretty sure- No, I’m not pretty sure!
After all the crossings we’ve been through,
it’s not suppose to be like this. Why?

lyrics of Polaroid by Oh Chentaku

Let's play something~

Maybe a song... It's been one heck of a time since I last jammed. I've only jammed once since I entered college. Not that college life is busy (in fact, I think I have too much free time since I entered college), but the lack of others' willingness to join whatever I am to do... or so to speak. And it hit me, I've really fwked up a lot of money recently. Mostly on food (but fwk no if you think I'm getting fatter!). But back to where I was- yeah, it has really been some time since I jammed so the fact that next week is my semester break is a good opportunity for me to jam like crazy with my brother lol I think he'd love to play some simple punk cover songs like always (eventhough he's a complete metalhead) . And yeah, talking about punk covers, I found a great song the other day on YouTube- 'Leaving on a Jetplane' by the epic band Me First and the Gimme Gimmes XP I mean, I never actually listen to the original but the cover kick ass XP (and yeah, I know my brother would love to play it).

Then New life

Yup yup~ MY new life desu~
I started college about 2 weeks ago (but class just started about a week ago)
So, TPM College. My first thought was... 'TPM wut?' XD Seriously, I've never heard of it but since it's not such a bad offer (at least for me) so I just grab it without any regret or whatever~

I got nothing to say about the college XP (I'm not gonna post about the college lameness XD)
But well, yeah there's the apartment. It's a small apartment shared with another 9 students. So... yeah~~~~ it's pretty much cramped but I guess it's not half-bad, I mean, I've seen worst.

So the other 9 will be.

Luqman : The one on the bed below me. Hardcore gamer XD
Faiz : A guy from my school. A senior actually, a year older than us all
Sean : His real name is Haris. A guys who share the same passion as me in music and art. I really can relate to him.
Leo : A guy from Sabah XD Average Joe XP (sorry dude) He's also a year older~
Azri : Has the same name with my brother XD Another Average Joe XD
Arip : Goes with the nick Kura-kura since he's in an epic group called Kura-kura during orientation week XD
Kuza : Real name is Hafiz and he's Sean's friend from MRSM. The story behind his nick is long but simply it comes from Yakuza XD A fellow otaku and he remind me of my cousin.
Najmie : Sometimes called Jimi. He knows Japanese, Korean and a little Mandrin. Simply a language expert.
Acap : An Average Joe XP He sent his end of enrollment since he got an offer to study at an IPTA. Be missing you mate~

Hey KL~

God, I've forgotten how I hate the roads in KL since like 6 month ago, when I went to CF~
In case you guys are wondering, yes, I got lost- actually my family got lost. Just one simple wrong turn got you into a whole bunch of trouble of getting yourself back to where you're suppose to be going. Yeah~ lame~ but whatever since I'm here already, at my cousin's house and writing this very post. Actually some may realize that I've been offline since a few days ago. Well actually, my internet fwked up(after a storm at my place)~ but hell, it's not like there's people who miss me. I mean, c'mon, I know I'm hateable (is that even a word) but I'm still here guys, I live, and still kicking ass! I'm not afraid to keep on living, I'm not afraid to walk this world alone! And in case some are wondering, yes, that's from MCR's Famous Last Words XD

lol Some may already know, I'll start college tomorrow. A time has come for a man to leave home XD I'm a little nervous actually, but God-willing, everything's gonna be fine. Just have to keep myself from being homesick, or more accurately internetsick XD well, wish me luck guys and I swear I'll hunt down anywone who curse me to have a misareble life (you know who you are!)

And here's a song for myself~

Girl Friday by Butterfingers

Ain't that hard to live alone
Ain't that far to be from home
Cause gravity can never pull me down
Calculate the days I've spent proscinating
God knows when
Grow in silence feverish or flu
And again it's me and myself and I
Fall on me!
Stand aside trying to keep my cool
Stand in line feeling like a fool
It's getting late now get back in your bed
Then remembered a what my daddy said
What' cha gonna be?!
And again it's me and myself and I.....
Stay with me !

Politics? FWK NO!!

Fwk up politics: we're selling our mistakes on TV~
Fwk up politics: your lies and our misery!

I was talking with my father just now when he said "yeah, btw, tomorrow you got a Belia meeting at the local community hall". We'll I'm kinda shocked. I mean, I never sign up for any belia thing so I ask what belia meeting. "It's the Belia UMNO thing. We signed you up" said my mom. And yes, you may guess, I went 'WTF?!!'. I never-fwking-ever was into politics! I mean hey, who izzit that wants to be a worshipper of the wrongs? Well, I don't. Fwk no! Never ever! I'm just glad I don't get brainwashed by the fwked up propagandas on TV and daily papers but now signed up for belia UMNO?! WHAT IN THE FWKING HELL?!

I guess people never see the wrong behind their daily dose of their news. C'mon, there's no right in politics! All I see are people screwing around with religion, racism, and faith of the majority! lol I mean, yeah, majority suck balls! It's because majority are the ones who swallowed propaganda without even thinking.

Tch, what the hell~ I'm not thinking about going tomorrow anyway~

Heartache | New Divide

I sat here on my heartache: waiting on some beautiful girl to- to save me from my old ways.
(Originally 'When You Were Young' by The Killers)

lol mind me XD
So, Linkin Park's new single, New Divide was released roughly a day ago and I've already got my hand on the MP3.
Anyone interested, I'm sharing it here~ I take no credit for the upload~ (click on the image please~~)

And here's the lyrics, taken from Mike Shinoda's blog, so don't say it's wrong XD

NEW DIVIDE
LYRICS BY MIKE SHINODA AND CHESTER BENNINGTON

I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in / between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss / in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret / and each goodbye
was a mistake to great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

The world is my joker, I am the king

The world is my joker, I am the king;

It has entertained me enough, now off with it's head!

I dunno why, but I'm pretty stuck with old Butterfingers songs now.
It all begin with my brother putting some old Butterfingers songs into his phone and make me listen to it XD
I got hooked with the song Faculties of The Mind for it's brilliant music and lyrics.
And yeah, I've heard the live version where Emmett said (to the crowd) 'Like I said, If only I could see your faces. But just enjoy the music.'
Then he added 'I hate the lights. I hate the lights- it makes me a star: I'm no better than anybody else.'

btw, the lyrics (well, search the song yourself, it can easily found on the net, youtube etc)

Faculties of The Mind

It's gonna be a fifty-fifty treatment
You'd be in and never outdoor
You'd be king long lost forgotten

It's gonna take a while i once remembered
There were lies i used to tell her
Hidden secrets make it rotten

On and on the days go on
And on and on for what i made wrong
Fall this time the times are useless
Have you been through wonderful minds ?

Shout out loud the ants are coming
There's a thought that ever was
Once again and not forever

On and on the days go on
And on and on for what i made wrong
Fall this time the times are useless
Have you been through wonderful minds ?!

All the things you do you would do know
All the things you said you would say now
All the dreams come true in the meanlum
Have you been through wonderful minds ?

Have you been through wonderful minds ?!

All the things you said you would say now
All the things you do you would do know
All the dreams come true in the meanlum
Have you been through wonderful

All the things you do you would do know
All the things you said you would say now
All the dreams come true in the meantime
Have you been through wonderful

All the things you said you would say now
All the things you like you would like
All the dreams come true in the meantime
Have you been through wonderful minds ?

It's gonna be a fifty-fifty treatment
You'd be in and never outdoor
You'd be king long lost forgotten

On and on the days go on
And on and on for what i made wrong
Fall this time the times are useless
Have you been through wonderful minds

Boring Saturday is boring desu :3

I'm obsessed with height but very paranoid of fall: I hate falling, cause when you fall, you'll feel like the world is pushing you down.

Yup, It's so fwking boring today~
Saturday- the day without any trainee nurse for eye candy, not much costumers to keep you busy, the day the boss ask you to do as much as rough labour work as possible and the day of hell when the cashier didn't show up for work and replaced by the boss. FWK!

Luckily, the loli-meganekko doctor was there for a little while to make my day. *sigh* I wish she would break up with her boyfriend XD

Oh yes, some don't know that I have stopped becoming a hikkikomori for a while now. A month after I quit my job, I decided to work again since I realize how hard it is to become broke. Kill me lol

Yeah also, my doujin group, Sound of Fanatism (Have the same name with my blog) will be getting a booth at C2AGE. We're still in progress of finishing up. And I haven't pay the booth rent. What the hell. Really, please kill me XDXDXD

I guess that's it for this boring Saturday. I'm gonna go out to a friend's house, have a coffee at a nearby warung, go to the cc and play FlatOut then get back home to finish my doujin (or not)

Aw hell. Whatever~

Life sucks? Think again mate~

WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM?!! : Seriously, this would make a great punk rock patch~

What izzit with me lately?
I really feel down since I quit my job. I told my boss that I was going to pursue my dreams XD
But seriously, I am! Right now, I'm drawing a comic for Gakuen Tension also writing some songs along the way (who knows maybe I can fit it into my comic XD).

I went to my workplace yesterday to pick up my last pay, even when I say I was going to quit, I still help the others do the works~ Well, lucky me I don't have to wash the dishes XD
And here's my last pay; RM270. A very little amount, I know. Since I left work a week before the end of the month and on top of that, I did borrowed the boss RM50. Yeah, I suck.

Along the way home, I dropped at a local Jking store to but myself a jacket that cost me about RM80 TT^TT As I was leaving the store owner asked me "You're buying that? What do you work as?" since the one I bought is usually worn by teachers. With a bitter smile I replied that I've just quit my job and laugh. Unexpectedly, he offered me a job: as a despatch-something. But my jobless friend that came along with me snatch it since I don't have a licence XD
Then he offered another job, as a shirt designer! Me eyes went +w+ hearing that XD

He said that he'd give RM 10 for each design I could complete based on demand~ It's not much I know, but the fact that I like the job made me accept it~

So now, I'm free, have a job that I like and pursuing my dreams : life doesn't always suck after all~